Be Still

He says “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalm 46:10

This framed plaque ‘Be Still’ I received over a year ago. It’s on my wall. I pass by it every day. In this present journey I have been pushing myself forward. I hadn’t felt like I had been growing… I felt unsettled. That day I looked at that frame with renewed purpose… I was finally still. Everything in me finally stopped for the first time. There was nothing more to fight…just be still.

I don’t like “still.” Still is quiet, still is silence.

Still is when everything ends.

Still is when you can’t possibly go forward anymore because everything quits.

Still is when your fight has left.

Still means broken.

These are things I don’t like.

‘Still’ is what I fight every day.

Still means me at my very end begging to move forward.

Yet…

Still is where you have wanted me.

Still is where you placed me.

Still is when my tank finally ran empty.

This is where I was broken, my fight left, I couldn’t move forward, when everything ended, me at my very end, where it was quiet...

Still was where you spoke!

And you cleared my heart.